The chaotic of modernity has changed the world into a wilderness of material culture representation. Life is conveyed by the superficial and shallow experience, which gives a sensation or even dogmatic that inspire the perception of reality fastly, including the self-reality. The art sensibility and 'chaos' are the power of life that creates human self-relation with essence of life. The possibility of looking beyond and bring ourselves to being beyond. Meaning fulness really relies on human's

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... sthetical perspective, which sees the world as non-material world; the existence of 'Being' that has become the meaning of all material surface. Art has undoubtedly become the conductor of self-unity. Through the phenomenology of Husserl and the aesthetic of Deleuze, the contiguity of selfness with art is interpreted as the chaotic exploration, the unity of subject-object exploration on the pre-reflective, pre-theoritical level. Art is a sensation of chaotic embodiment, and art sensibility is the nature of chaotic power. From this, the aesthetical selfness is originated, a selfness that could enter the meditation zone with a sensibility and intellegency up to the level of conscious reflectivity, which will be able to touch the depth of human's spiritual zone. Abstrak Hirukpikuk modernitas kian mengubah dunia menjadi belantara representasi budaya material. Kehidupan terhantar pada pengalaman yang bersifat permukaan, dangkal, hingga memberi sensasi bahkan dogmatis yang begitu cepat pengaruhi persepsi akan realitas, termasuk realitas diri. Kepekaan seni dan 'khaos' merupakan daya hidup pencipta hubungan diri manusia dengan esensi kehidupan. Memungkinkan suatu looking beyond dan membawa diri pada being beyond. Kebermaknaan sedemikian bergantung pada cara pandang estetik manusia akan dunia sebagai dunia non material, keberadaan suatu 'Ada' (Being), yang menjadi makna dari segala kematerialan yang mengemuka. Seni menjadi keniscayaan penghantar keterleburan diri ke dalamnya. Melalui fenomenologi Husserl dan estetika Deleuze, persentuhan diri dengan seni termaknai sebagai petualangan khaos,